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Showing posts with label Soul. Show all posts

15.9.09

Quran: Si Lelaki kacak


Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) bersabda : 'Bila seseorang lelaki itu mati dan saudaranya sibuk dengan pengebumiannya, berdiri lelaki yang betul-betul kacak di bahagian kepalanya. Bila mayatnya dikapan, lelaki itu berada di antara kain kapan dan si mati.


Selepas pengebumian, semua orang pulang ke rumah, 2 malaikat Mungkar dan Nakir, datang dalam kubur dan cuba memisahkan lelaki kacak ini supaya mereka boleh menyoal lelaki yang telah meninggal itu seorang diri mengenai ketaatannya kepada Allah. Tapi lelaki kacak itu berkata,
Dia adalah temanku, dia adalah kawanku. Aku takkan meninggalkannya seorang diri walau apa pun. Jika kamu ditetapkan untuk menyoal, lakukanlah tugasmu. Aku tidak boleh meninggalkannya sehingga aku dapati dia dimasukkan ke dalam Syurga.'


Selepas itu dia berpaling pada temannya yang meninggal dan berkata,'Aku adalah Al-Quran, yang mana kamu membacanya, kadang-kadang dengan suara yang nyaring dan kadang-kadang dengan suara yang perlahan. Jangan bimbang. Selepas soal siasat dari Mungkar dan Nakir, kamu tidak akan bersedih.'


Selepas soal siasat selesai, lelaki kacak mengatur untuknya daripada Al-Mala'ul A'laa (malaikat dalam Syurga) tempat tidur dari sutera yang dipenuhi bauan kesturi


Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) bersabda :'Di hari pengadilan, di hadapan Allah, tiada syafaat yang lebih baik darjatnya daripada Quran, mahupun dari nabi atau malaikat.'

I really hope Yuni’s fist words will be "Laila ha illallah"… Right now her blabbering sounds more like the zikir we always sing to her when she goes to sleep.

Since that is the most spoken words to her. These few days, I have noticed that when I place Yuni next to me on her rocker chair during prayers, she’ll sit quietly staring witout making a sound. She’s always very quiet even without a toy in her hands. Her grandma said do it often, next time she’ll like to pray too with her mother and father.

Semalam sahaja Yuni solat Maghrib 3 kali…dengan mama, dengan grandma & then dengan grandpa. Grandpa was reluctant at first, because he feared Yuni will cry during his solat… I bet grandpa liked it yesterday, he’d be happy to handle Yuni during solat right now…hehe

I am looking for the right story book for Yuni. She likes to hold books. And she’s quiet when I place her on my lap while reading the newspaper or any books. Then again, rather than buying / reading her fairytale books, I should also read her stories from Hadith and stories from the Quran. That would be much better. Macam cerita di atas.

Update on my sis, Aimi. She’s coming home reaching KLIA at 5pm today. *yeay!* Now Yuni can play with her Mak Ngah pulak…hehehe

Okaylah…I need to rush home for bf…hope she’s awake by the time I reach home :p

3.9.09

Cerita Opah - 2

Salam,

Baru lepas bergembira dengan cerita Uyuni dah masuk 4 bulan semalam. Pagi tadi dengar pula cerita sedih tentang Opah Abg yang sedang terlantar di wad Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Kelang.

Read about Opah

Opah malam semalam tiba-tiba tak dapat bercakap dan tidak sedarkan diri. Makcik dan Pakcik bawa Opah terus ke hospital. Sebelum ini dia pernah pengsan semasa sedang makan. Doktor mengesahkan bahawa dia menghidapi “stroke” pada waktu itu. Tapi, setelah rehat yang mencukupi, Opah segar kembali.

Opah perlu pantang dalam pemakanannya. Semuanya kerana faktor usia dan kesihatan. Sebab itulah saya tanya pada Abg apa Opah makan masa berbuka petang semalam. Kata Abg, kuih biasa-biasa saja.

Petang tadi sms Abg tanya update keadaan Opah.
Opah dah sedarkan diri….tapi masih belum boleh bercakap, masih tak dapat mengenal sesiapa pun ahli keluarganya yang ada di situ. Doktor pakar sedang memeriksanya sekarang. Katanya terkena Angin Ahmar. Na’uzubillah…

Sebak sebentar dengar Abg kata macam tuh. Kenapa? Sebab saya tak pulang ke Kelang untuk berbuka puasa minggu lepas. Tak sempat nak jumpa Opah semasa dia tengah sihat. Sekarang masa tengah sakit, dia mungkin dah tak kenal sesiapa lagi. Bersalahnya rasa….

Dugaan dari Allah memang menyedarkan ramai antara kami sekeluarga. Di saat genting inilah baru kita lihat bagaimana Opah yang ada ramai anak tak mampu membela dia seorang. Tak mampu berkorban untuk Ibu seorang. Sedih, kan?

Menurut Abg, Opah sekarang memorinya sangat rendah…kadang-kadang dia ingat Abg air matanya berlinangan, pegang Abg, tak kasi pulang, tapi tak lama lepas tu dia akan tak sedarkan diri dan lupa kembali siapa Abg.

Mungkin sudah tiba masanya kita semua fikir untuk menjenguk orang tua di kampung. Terutamanya bulan Ramadhan yang banyak berkatnya. Melawat saudara mara=merapatkan hubungan silaturrahim = banyak pahala

Kawan-kawan mungkin tak kenal Opah, tapi harapan supaya kawan-kawan boleh sedekahkan Al-Fatihah untuk Opah supaya keadaannya kembali stabil, InsyaAllah.


Nota kaki: Fieza insaf hari ini. Tapi, hospital tak benarkan kanak-kanak berusia bawah 12 tahun untuk melawat (termasuklah Yuni)

22.3.09

Going to be 35

No lah.... I have not burst yet...heheh

It has been a long silence. Actually, dah banyak giller drafts....tp xterasa nak publish...(hormones?) Anyway, in another 2 days, I am going to reach my 35th week pregnancy. Lately, I have been busy going to ante-natal classes on friday evenings after work. *sigh*

I am currently busy on a new project too...hehe...Not actually mine, but I am kinda supporting someone. hmmm...

I could not sleep yet....Petang tadi dah tidur lama kot....Hubby already dozed off, leaving me with the Astro on 813 Channel..Newcastle vs. Arsenal. *sigh*

Went to Serdang this morning. Jalan2. I love to think I am a positive person during pregnancy. But, sometimes I find myself being negative towards certain things/issues. The midwife who gave me the ante-natal classes, said it was normal. Even after pregnancy, some mothers could be emotionally positive/negative.

For example, lately, I have been soooo sensitive towards politial issues on t.v even more than I did at early pregnancy. Or, when things don't go as they're used to in daily routines, I kinda get annoyed and start questioning people. Why? Why? and Why?

This morning, I was slightly annoyed when my B.I.L said "Even Mak Buyong is here" on the phone with hubby's Aunt... I mean, what's wrong with a pregnant lady going for trips/jalan2 along with her husband? Its not like I'm going alone....Some more, its in the morning la beb... Itu pon nak kecoh...I deserve to go on trips, especially if the trips were planned by ME, and since I planned it, took time and effort to do some research on the internet etc... while you were the one, out of my pity and approval to tag along...Just shut up la kan... Maybe I was the one who's being too sensitive about it...But what the heck! I am the preganat lady aroung here, so don't mess with me, okay?


*Ter-over-sensitip la pulak....*

Sometimes, I tend to get a little bit negative these days, but I am proud to say, the % of being -ve is too little ompared to before. Everytime I realize I'm going to be -ve, baby would remind me by giving me a free kick. hehehe... (please excuse my imagination)

Back to my ante-natal class story. I realized that not many of Malays do take effort to learn about preparations before/during/after delivery. There were only 2 Malay couples including me on this month session. The rest were Chinese couples. The other Malay couple who were in my class looked betul2 macam orang KL la....Btw, husband dia rupa iras2 Zafrul in SpaQ 2...hehehe (sempat lagi tuh...) I am not sure why people don't take effort to learn at least for 1st child expectors. Maybe, xramai Malay delivers in SJMC, that's why I don't see many of them. At least I learned a lot on what to expect on the BIG day...heheh...

Some of the facts I learned from yesterday's class;

In Malaysia,

30,000 babies are born every year in a Government Hospital = 3,500 babies/month.
Only 100-250 babies are born in a Private Hospital every month.

Total in Malaysia, there are 500,000+ babies born every year.

Conclusion from the facts;

If you are a doctor majoring in gyno/peads in Malaysia, YOU ARE RICH!

You should stay and work in Malaysia. No need to work in Africa / Japan. Why?

1. In Africa, they deliver babies in their own homes. They are educated not to rely on limited medical doctor assistants during delivery, unless in special cases.

2. In Japan, due to too expensive cost of living and good health management in each families, they don't rely on peads when their children get sick (if they ever get sick) and gynos are soooo HIMA. heheh...

Anyway, if you really think about it, delivering a baby is a natural process. Our body is build up to do it naturally. Subhanallah! Kalau tak, macammana orang dahulu boleh beranak dalam rumah? Mana ade rushing nak pergi hospital? Orang sekarang pergi hospital because we are educated to do so AND sudah ada bermacam2 kemudahan. Contoh kemudahan; PAIN KILLERS (example; ephidural, pethidine etc.) Ada certain2 ibu2 sekarang, tak mahu merasa sakit semasa bersalin sedikit pon hingga sanggup bayar around RM2k++ for ephidural... Tak akan rasa sakit langsung...No ontractions at all! Wow! Boleh lepak2 tengok tv lagi semasa sakit (sebab xrasa)...

Tapi, bilangan ibu2 tuh masih sedikit di Malaysia...around 10% sahaja yang mungkin xtahan sakit and chose to take pain killers. But, tiada yang salah....itu adalah hak masing2... Whereas jika nak dibanding kan dengan negara2 barat, di mana 90% ibu2 mengambil pain killers kerana xtahan menanggung sakit contractions. Lebih ramai ibu2 die Barat yang memilih untuk dibedah instead of normal "push..push..push" delivery. (So, actually kalu nk jadi gynos/peads dekat US/UK pon buleh juga kaya...kehkehkeh...)

Seronok dengar midwife tu cerita macam2 especially part husband role in the delivery room... Hanya hospital swasta yang membenarkan kaum Adam a.k.a suami untuk berada dalam delivery room. Although sebenarnya, doctors agak masih lagi sangsi dengan fungsi mereka berada bersama2 si isteri.... "Moral support" -> kata midwives...Nasib baik I pergi class ante-natal nih....kalu tak Abg mesti xtahu ape yg dia kena buat dlm bilik tuh nanti...hehehe

Okaylah.....dah start sakit belakang nih...Baby pon dah tidur agaknye...diam aje...td ade gak tendang2....Doakanlah keselamatan saya semasa delivery nanti....Hope to be blogging soon...Good nite!

30.12.08

I sometimes Youtube on freetime



I love to hear him talk. Its so full of logic. Not like most politician who choose to include sometimes too much sarcasism in their speech. heh. (p/s: Not in favour of any side tho)

That is the best thing when you talk by the roots and teachings of Islam. Its the way of life and appropriate to be applied to everyone regardless their race. :)



Contrast to the topic above, me and Abg laughed soooo hard watching the edit-ed video below. Baby pon gelak jugak dalam perut nih...ehehehe... (bergerak2 aktif tuh...)




I have no comment on the content of the video...But, I respect the editor's creativity on making it sooooo funny!! hahahaha...Peace(>.

16.3.08

Diana Sis's wedding


Congratulations on your wedding!!

After being forced to come over *I really glad I did come*, I managed to get to Sri Kembangan...joined up with Rina and Yanna for the trip to Seremban. Thanks to Yanna's hubby for driving us there and also for the U-turn he had to do since I accidentally left my hp at the "meja sholek" pengantin. *Thank you very much!*

We enjoyed the talk during the trip...We really wished more members were there, especially, Yong....Please, do get well soon!! Kalau ko takde di wedding2 kawan kita, kurang meriahnye....(T.T) *hehehehe*

Anyway, I loved and admire the wedding!! There were 13 big khemah all along the road. There was a karaoke set and a "kugiran" at the wedding. The bride father sang 4 songs while we ate, and the bride's mom joined us for the meal, of course, Diana too.

I tell you, being the family side of the 1st child wedding is HECTIC! Today, the bride's mom fainted 3 times due to hot weather and too much crowd coming at 1 time with 2 buses from kampung. Btw, >Am's wedding invitation card arrived. It indeed is a unique card. I liked it cause it resembles the uniqueness of the couple getting married.*hehehe* Insyaallah, I will come.

Other than that, tomorrow's another big day at work. Audit season's getting near and training schedule on Tuesday and Wednesday this week. Annual dinner on Wednesday and a farewall dinner for "Atok" on the 22nd, if I'm not mistaken. Well, life has to go on, we still need to face new challenges. Meet more new people and handle much2 more bigger problems. Seek for solution and peace. So, gotta be prepared, so Sleep tight! Good night!

15.3.08

Berat untuk meluahkan...Tapi, luah jugak lah..

If you despise the country you live in, go live somewhere else.



" Saya tak jumpa lagi perempuan Malaysia yang cantik, perempuan Jepun ramai yang cantik"

"Kalau parti pembangkang jadi kerajaan, saya nak pindah duduk negara lain"

"Saya tak boleh la duduk kampung, bosan. Asyik tengok pokok je..."

"Malasla nak buat kerja ni...menyusahkan. Kerja senang sikit takde ker?"

"Jepun lagi seronok kak...Saya tak tahu apa yang seronok dekat Malaysia ni"



I have never ever in my life met someone soooooooo honest to his feelings and dare enough to say it out loud without thinking of the consequences of others listening to his comments.



If I was to be honest to myself, I'd say... The person saying this is immatured and snobbish. Fullstop.


I do respect personal opinions, but remember dear, that everything you say resembles your personality. If not 100%, at least 80%. It also shows your characteristic and your lifestyle. And when you talk more often, we can see the pattern of your speech, and sooner or later could predict the actual you just by your opinion and the way you talk. Predictions will be made in the end on what kind of person you are.




I am not saying that I know you inside out, but from your "daitan na hatsugen"...You could be...someone who wants everything to come rolling the easy way. Someone who either have never tasted hardship all your life or just plainly brought up spoilt. *never ever saying that twice*


Plus, you have lost a part of what is said to be, sopan santun dan tatasusila budaya timur. Most probably due to being too obsessed with other culture or just plain ignorance to grow up and face the actual world.



You chose to run away rather than facing up the challange. To you, why take up time and endless effort when there is always an easy exit? is always the excuse. You look down to others who are working hard and staying back late. You "memperkecil-kecilkan" people who can't afford to become as highly standard as YOU. People who are not blessed with wealth from the beginning, like YOU. People who are not as well educated, as YOU.



Tsktsktsk... Kerajaan hantar awak pergi belajar ke luar negara berbekalkan wang rakyat dengan harapan yang tinggi. Bukan sahaja sekadar menuntut ilmu dan menggulung ijazah, tetapi supaya awak pulang membantu negara, jika bukan secara aktif, secara pasif pun takpe. Kerajaan, bertindak sebagai penjaga yang memberi sumber kewangan kepada awak untuk belajar di luar negara, berharap jika awak pulang ke tanahair suatu hari nanti, awak akan menjadi manusia yang berguna dari segi kemantapan sahsiah juga. Pulanglah ke tanahair supaya menjadi kebanggaan rakyat, bukan pulang dengan "arrogant".



Seperti ibubapa yang menghantar anak mereka ke sekolah, kerajaan juga berharap awak pulang bukan sahaja dengan ilmu, tetapi dengan sikap dan sahsiah yang lebih matang. Tak guna jika ada ilmu yang melimpah-limpah, tapi attitude macam sampah- "I am better than all of you"-attitude.



I am so positively sure that this is NOT the teachings of Japanese.



I am really not sure at this moment that you are a Japan University graduate and doubt that you actually lived 4 years there. I think, you missed the plane to Japan and boarded another flight somewhere else and studied there instead. You missed out the important teachings and attitude of Japanese that should be applied and brought back, instead you brought back a load of minor, unuseful ones.




I am so ashamed to admit you are my "kohai". I am so ashamed to admit that you graduated from Japan U. Most of all, I am so ashamed of what you have bragged to others and the attitude you showed to all other low ranking staff in the office. I may not know what the hell happened to you during college years, in the past nor your "PRIVATE" and "CONFIDENTIAL" background. But in my opinion, your current attitude right now is a disgrace to your "senpai", a disgrace to your batch and a disgrace to the government who invested in you. Ahli saham will call it "No-profit saham"-*tabun*, we call it Technical error, get it? My company calls it "non-profitable" products, which will be transferred to Vietnam soon.




Don't get me wrong, I don't hate you. I just hate your current attitude. I still hope for you to change the attitude. Kalau susah sangat, probably kurangkan sikit ker...Because I am still willing to close my ears and ignore the ill-attitude remarks which I see or hear directly or indirectly....at least until Dec 2008.



But, if you still chose not to change, and chose to stand up with your current attitude, please go and find somewhere else to live.



The end.

26.2.08

Life


Tidak beriman seseorang yang tidak memelihara amanah,
dan tidak sempurna iman seseorang apabila tidak menepati janji.
(Nabi Muhammad S.A.W)

A collegue told me today,

"Kau boleh la stay back lama-lama kat ofis, Life kau kat sini"


I would like to comment and elaborate the statement longer. I was at first a bit upset with the statement. How could you make irresponsible judgements like that when you don't even live in the person's shoes? If the above quote was more of a question, I would be glad enough to answer. But, in the form of statment? Please, don't throw your frustration/tantrum at me. Because I went through that phase a long time ago.

Last 2 years, I felt as though my life revolves around WORK only. Fullstop. I kept on nagging to myself, sometimes to my seniors, how phatetic my life was....with long working hours, not much pay and a lot of stress. But I kept on chosing to stay back late and I choose to pretend that I am doing what I was trusted for at an optimum speed and time. In the end of the day, I felt as though I just wasn't doing enough. And I was very frustrated about this fact. It was as though I am incapable of doing my job well as others.


That is when I choose to give my frustration a lame excuse;
I HAVE NO LIFE WORKING HERE


Sheeesssh!! How such a cry baby I was at that time, I thought long enough to even say it out loud here. To think about it again, I was the one who choose to stay back late at office. I chose to carry the heavy work load on my back all the time. I choose to think I don't have a life. Why? Because the only life I went through all these years was my student life which was very simple and easy. I compare the current one with the previous one and decided to feel envious of it. Stupid!

Nothing is wrong with my current life. The problem is me! Thinking that there is a problem about my new working life when I have the option to choose whether to accept it full hearted or not. I was more to thinking about the problem rather than thinking about a solution or method to adapt to it. I realized then that I have the power to choose. And because I also have strong passion towards my current work and my responsibilities, I decided to make changes in my life.

1. I go out on weekends with friends.
2. Got myself a bf.
3. Restrict myself to work latest 7:30pm on weekdays. (Unless I saje2 nak borak ngan member after 7:30pm...no problem-> Cause that one xkire kerja)
4. Restrict myself to coming on weekends unless I have a dateline or paid. Some work can wait.
5. Learned to let go some of the workloads off my head at certain time and carry it back when I need it.
6. Learned to work smartly (dengan amanah, of course) and systematic.

So, after 2 years... Although sometimes I do stay back longer at the office than others, I do not feel under stressed at all. And to conculde that just because I stay back longer than others, doesn't mean that I don't have a life. It means, I choose to spend my life differently that others because my priorities, my goals and my passion towards my work is different.

So people! Be careful with your words...And think wisely before you make statements. Think before you act/speak. Cause you are not he only one living in this world. Everyone has their own style of life and priorities. Learn to respect their style rather than accept. (kadang2 susah nak accept segala2nya...)


Setiap orang adalah arkitek kehidupannya sendiri
(Sallust)


Love and peace,
Fieza

10.2.08

CNY Holls



Chinese New Year....4 days of holidays...*yeah!!*

This year's CNY was spent whole in Perak...hehehe...

1. Congratulations to Ratna and Amir on their wedding!

- Ratna's my collegue and she'll be having her wedding hols all week starting next week...*bestnyer*


2. Finally got to meet the amazing and cute, Shafiqah Atirah...Abg's anak buah...

- Debab's first baby and outstandingly a good girl. She doesn't mind being left at home with Atok when her parents go ronggeng somewhere in Lumut. She doesn't cry most of the time and can easily be held by almost everyone.



3. The best part is spending time with Abg. Cari penawar and stuff.

- Yes, he had been sick and I know this is a combination of both spritual and basic modern health problems. Inappropriate diet for starters. And tempat kerja yang keras. Plus a slight unidentified "stress" problem.

But, all in all, we were lucky to find the warmth of kampung people so healthy. All tried to help in each ways. Some don't even charge us anything. They just wanted to help and this experience was so touching.

Although preceptions had been made that "orang kampung" berfikiran kolot etc... I think they still potrait the best basic of adat Melayu of helping others in need. *sungguh membina!*

Dah lama sebenarnya tak merasa kebaikan orang2 Melayu kita di kampung since saya sudah tiada kampung. Jiran pon di bandar tak bertegur sapa sangat. Masing2 sibuk dengan kerja dan jadual harian. Semangat berjiran itu, I believe agak kurang di bandar berbeza dengan kampung. "Cheh! ckp pon mcm org puteh kacuk Melayu gituh...hahahaha"

Yang penting right now, is that Abg's health is improving. I hope it will continue to improve and stay constant, the positive way.

Not to forget, yang penting di pelajari after spending 4 days in kampung style... I don't really care about nyamuk, lalat, semut, cicak etc...okay, tolak lipas la...belum bersedia lagi...

Dah, esok kerja...I wanna spend the few hours of holiday relaxing at home...peace!

3.2.08

Life is beautiful when you try to see it beautifully


Woke up at 5:30 am realizing I had my contact lenses on all the time. 2nd time in this week. Its either fatigue or just plain forgetfullness. Hmmm... Today's big agenda: Wedding ceremony in Shah Alam (Mom's friend) and hantar lunch Abg at work...hehehe...


I was so glad that positive results showed this morning. His sleep disorder problem somehow stopped somewhere yesterday after Ustaz Nazri read him a number of ayat Al-Quran from picked surah. One of it, advised by him was Surah Taubah. Will study more on to this Surah.

It is really amazing when you have the chance to see how Doktor Islam do their work. If you go to the hospital, first, they'll check your pulse, heart beat, your tonsils, body temperature etc. Whereas Doktor Islam asks your name, the syndrom of the problem and your birthday.

At hospital, the doctor gives you a list of drug prescription, you buy medicine and consume it. Doktor Islam makes a list of Ayat Al Quran (Mom said they are Ayat2 Syifa') prescription and reads/applies it to you.

The interesting part about it is that once you finish your science medicine dosage, but fail to regain health, you go to the doctor again and take on more. While with the Al-Quran, you have it with you,F.O.C and with practice Insyaallah.

Both are similar method yet different in some sense. Isn't it wonderful to see things in different views? Subhanallah.

27.1.08

Itu Kamu


Itu Kamu = Its you / That's you.


Itu kamu berdua....Awynne and Shahnaz....Congratulations on your wonderful wedding! Semoga berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu.


Itu kamu berdua.... Lina and Jefrey....Congratulations on your wedding...You guys were just soooo adorable! Semoga berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu.


Itu kamu yang tgh wat thesis to grad bulan March ini... All the best for the last trial of education... tak kesahla Masters or Degree... Ganbare!


Itu kamu kawanku dd....
Never ever say or let anyone say you're ugly or stupid or let anything negative get to you!


" Kerana yang penting dan yang membezakan antara satu manusia dengan manusia yang lain hanyalah iman dan taqwa mereka kepada Allah"


- Not looks, not education level, not financial status nor whether you stay single nor you stay married. If you're still single with no bf or you can't call up 10 men by clicking fingers (pinjam ayat sat...).... It doesn't matter. Its not really that important. Kerana rezeki di tanganNya. (I hope this helps a bit)


Because I know that all my friends are superb! Kerana dirimu sangat berharga (ayat pinjam juga...)


Itu kamu "Abg".... Sampai bilalah nak segan? Beranikanlah diri turun kereta at least untuk berjabat tangan dengan Ayahanda saya... Because I believe that dad is not prejudice type... Plus, he's not the type of dad yang dalam cerita2 P.Ramlee yang you suka tengok tuh...hehehe...


Itu kamu....Adakah ini lagu orang Perak yang compose & tulis lirik? <- Juara lagu ke-22